Lullabies

_{(Please don't read if you don't want to listen to me rant, this piece is a giant work of art venting so I'm going to vent in the info as well.)
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Do you ever just feel so so fucking alone that it just hurts so bad right? Like everyone smiles at you and asks you how your day is but at the end of the day they don’t actually care. And when you can’t even be yourself comfortably around the person you trust the most because of one seemingly tiny incident that is the fucking worst right? Because you’re such a fucking loser and everything just hurts because you never ever have anyone to really talk to right, no one to call right away when something exciting happens or when you do something that makes you feel good about yourself, you have no one to go to that is genuinely interested. Every day is the same sad cycle of stress and emptiness and it all hurts. And I just feel so alone and it hurts. It really hurts. Having no one honestly and truly hurts and feeling powerless against the one you love hurts. Having a cat and 6 contacts in my phone hurts. But it's okay, because I have my art. I can paint until my eyes can't cry anymore and I feel better because look at this awesome thing I made! I made it by myself and I'm proud of it and that's all I need. If you're reading this I want you to know you have helped me through so many hard times in my personal life. People don't realize how much a simple act of kindness can mean to someone (like me!) and to some people, it means the world to them. I appreciate you guys so so so much and I want to kiss all of you for being so sweet and nice and giving me tips to grow and succeed.}